Wednesday April 8

Today was a success in terms of balancing senior project stuff, stuff I have to do around the house and things I want to do. I think having a written out schedule helped a lot even though towards the end I didn’t really follow it. There’s still some I want to do but overall, I’m happy. I finally settled on a story to work on and have started outlining it using The Hero’s Journey. I went outside and walked in the sun for a while, which was nice. As I was leaving Little Azio’s a bunch of kids came in, there were maybe eight of them ranging in ages two to nine, and they were mostly boys, black, white, and mixed. Some of the kids were in uniform, some weren’t and I was really confused about what the group was. I couldn’t be a class trip or a playgroup ‘cause the ages were too far apart. There were two women with them but the kids didn’t really pay them any mind after telling them what they wanted to eat so it was unlikely that they were a family, plus, when the two year old started crying the other kids looked at her with that mildly irritated indifference that people have when it’s someone’s child. I think that maybe they were a carpool group? Anyway one of the older kids was trying to tell the other older on about one of the younger kids who could whip (it’s a dance) the little raven haired kid was stone-faced as he did it, almost solemn in his concentration. And seeing that juxtaposed with the giant smile that spread across his face when all his friends cheered him and tried to help him get better made me happy. I realized that part of the reason I did this senior project is that I have this urge to be young again. To return to that place of sunshine and smiles. Maybe this book will give me a piece of that.